Yellow to Turquoise Transition (update)

 I can't pinpoint an exact moment when things changed. Just like when a child enters puberty, suddenly you realize your whole world has changed in a momentous way. You can't yet see all its ramifications but you know they are profound.

When it happened, sometime in Spring 2024, there was a sort of reset. Gone were the goals and motivations that drove me until then. I felt like a blank slate upon "I" could choose to write a new identity. All my ongoing projects came to a halt, as if the wind that had been filling my sails had suddenly subsided. "Ripple and the Shore", my children's book about death and dying, is still unfinished. I managed to paint another panel in the meantime, but progress is bumpy. 
My passion for motorcycles just vanished. This has been a huge part of my life so far, especially in the past 15 years. This passion enabled me to build up Omega Racer and ensure financial freedom for me, my family, and indirectly for some of my friends. Now, this situation is particularly tricky. I started the business based on my passion for motorcycles, but now that the passion has gone....what to do? More about this later.

Tabula Rasa, kinda.
I felt I could do anything I wanted, be anyone I wanted, or not do or be anything and anyone at all. This feeling was extremely liberating and empowering on one hand. On the other hand, I still had a body, I was still (am!) married, I still had obligations and responsibilities, there were still needs asking to be fulfilled. My solution to this was to look for the brightest lighthouse I could find. I decided to dedicate the rest of this dreamlife to Beauty, Goodness and Truth, by way of creativity and intuition. What else is there? 

I finished the Spiral Dynamics series with this drawing, representing stage Turquoise. 
"ALL IS EYE"...a not-so-subtle wordplay, meaning All is "I", or "I am Everything".

The actual drawing has a mirror where the pupil is, which reinforces this point even more.

"Vitam Impendere Vero"...a life dedicated to Truth.

Back to passion. I'm a firm believer of following my passion, wherever it may take me. With the passion for motorcycles dissipated, I've been looking for what else gets me excited.
Now I feel I don't want to trade stuff that others make (and be held accountable for other people's mistakes), but I want to create my own stuff and offer it to those who might see some value in them. 
In practical terms, that would be paintings, drawings, light sculptures, sound baths and even culinary experiences.
The overall focus seems to have changed from wide to narrow. I have more to give to the world than motorcycle parts. These things really matter because they are a direct expression of who I am. I am not just a trader, a businessman who in his spare time dabbles in art. No. I'm a creative (a creator?) who creates Beauty, a soul who embraces Goodness and a torchbearer who upholds Truth above all else.
 

It appears the world is supporting this transition as well. The bike business hit a major hurdle with Trump's new tariffs and import policy, cutting my orders by at least 50-60%. On the other hand, the latest sound bath was probably one of the best I've ever given. The last dinner party for my 51st birthday was a great success (2 days of cooking, 7 different dishes). The violin wall light came out just as I had envisioned it. 
While one side is on the decline, the other is rising. 
The only apparent uncertainty is that the declining side has so far provided stability and financial freedom, while the rising side has provided passion and satisfaction but no financial reward (so far).
But prosperity doesn't always come in form of money. Money is a byproduct of following your passion, so that's what I'm doing. 

I trust the Universe, the Divine Will, the SELF to provide whatever I need at the right time.