There has been quite a transformation in my life in the past few months. I went a few times to a therapist in Bkk to help me clear some very old dark spots in me. These spots were related to my parents and because they were left unchecked, they influenced all facets of my life. To be free, one must "kill his parents" first, metaphorically speaking of course. After that, when you encounter Buddha, you have to kill him too. That means that all false belief structures have to be torn down, including what we think spirituality is. The dark spots in me were related to the relationship I had to my parents: shame, guilt, lack of love, lack of stability, security and approval. The obvious remedy to this seemed to be a need to prove myself in the eyes of others. To know more on an intellectual level, to be able to do more, learn new skills, to establish myself in the material world, to make progress in the spiritual world... All of that were cheap, very temporary feel-good patches de
